Fatigued
Our holiday break couldn't be happening at a better time for me personally. I'm feeling quite a bit of job fatigue right now, and I am looking forward to turning off the computers, locking up, and heading off to spend some relaxing, uninterrupted time with my family.
2005 has been a hell of a year. It was about a year ago that the first hints of serious trouble with Osseum started to come to our attention, the first signs that what we were seeing was not a simple account discrepancy or slow-to-pay distributor. It's been a year of cleaning up a filthy mess, every bit as stinking and unpleasant as having your nose broken by a drunken frat boy who then pukes on you for good measure.
Finally, finally we're seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, but it's been a long road. Every one of Green Ronin's wonderful employees have worked harder than we had any right to expect, and I'll be the first to admit that more than once this year I've gone all Mother Bear on people in defense of my guys, because I've known just how much they've carried on their shoulders.
My fatigue is the result of my caring so much, because I do care. I care about our employees, I want them to have stable, rewarding jobs and happy lives. I care about our fans, I want them to get everything they expect out of our products, I want to provide them with fun and enjoyment. I care about my family, and I want my husband to enjoy some leisure and peace again, I want my daughter to have the opportunity to know other things about us than that we're always on the computer, that we go to conventions and fill mail orders and answer complaints from people on the internet. I care about my neighborhood, I want this foul HOA to stop taking advantage of the diversity of our community for their own profit. I care about the state of the world, and I'm fatigued by corporate and governmental corruption, cronyism, environmental catastrophe.
I need to recharge. I need to see my dad, my step-mom, my step-brothers, my in-laws. I need to put together some puzzles, read for fun, watch Narnia and King Kong, play some farkle, go sledding, drink cocoa, and not look at the internet, not answer e-mail, not take any phone calls. And after tomorrow, that's exactly what I'm going to do!
2005 has been a hell of a year. It was about a year ago that the first hints of serious trouble with Osseum started to come to our attention, the first signs that what we were seeing was not a simple account discrepancy or slow-to-pay distributor. It's been a year of cleaning up a filthy mess, every bit as stinking and unpleasant as having your nose broken by a drunken frat boy who then pukes on you for good measure.
Finally, finally we're seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, but it's been a long road. Every one of Green Ronin's wonderful employees have worked harder than we had any right to expect, and I'll be the first to admit that more than once this year I've gone all Mother Bear on people in defense of my guys, because I've known just how much they've carried on their shoulders.
My fatigue is the result of my caring so much, because I do care. I care about our employees, I want them to have stable, rewarding jobs and happy lives. I care about our fans, I want them to get everything they expect out of our products, I want to provide them with fun and enjoyment. I care about my family, and I want my husband to enjoy some leisure and peace again, I want my daughter to have the opportunity to know other things about us than that we're always on the computer, that we go to conventions and fill mail orders and answer complaints from people on the internet. I care about my neighborhood, I want this foul HOA to stop taking advantage of the diversity of our community for their own profit. I care about the state of the world, and I'm fatigued by corporate and governmental corruption, cronyism, environmental catastrophe.
I need to recharge. I need to see my dad, my step-mom, my step-brothers, my in-laws. I need to put together some puzzles, read for fun, watch Narnia and King Kong, play some farkle, go sledding, drink cocoa, and not look at the internet, not answer e-mail, not take any phone calls. And after tomorrow, that's exactly what I'm going to do!
I take it suggesting a trip to Iraq, to see if all those milbloggers are being honest with people, is out of the question right now. :)
Congrats to Green Ronin for getting through the year. Congrats to Kathy for reaching double digits in age. And to you, may your correspondents be more constructive than destructive, even when they disagree with you.
Here's hoping 2006 is so successful you can double the rate you pay per word.