Smoking Trigger
Argh.
For the first time in more than a year, I feel to buy cigarettes and start smoking again. Stress, severe stress...does it to me every time. More than stress, it's the feeling of wanting to resort to violence against people who are making my life harder than it needs to be that gives rise to the impulse to want to grab a cigarette and turn that violence inward instead.
I swear, I've never gotten anything but trouble for trying to be a decent person who does the right thing...I could have been a millionaire by now if not constrained by conscience, ethics, morals, and a heart-felt aversion to being an asshole.
Good thing I'm leaving for Los Angeles in a few hours; unlike Las Vegas, Los Angeles is an easy place to avoid smoking.
For the first time in more than a year, I feel to buy cigarettes and start smoking again. Stress, severe stress...does it to me every time. More than stress, it's the feeling of wanting to resort to violence against people who are making my life harder than it needs to be that gives rise to the impulse to want to grab a cigarette and turn that violence inward instead.
I swear, I've never gotten anything but trouble for trying to be a decent person who does the right thing...I could have been a millionaire by now if not constrained by conscience, ethics, morals, and a heart-felt aversion to being an asshole.
Good thing I'm leaving for Los Angeles in a few hours; unlike Las Vegas, Los Angeles is an easy place to avoid smoking.
Be strong!
"I could have been a millionaire by now if not constrained by conscience, ethics, morals, and a heart-felt aversion to being an asshole." Be proud and leave the smokes to the losers.
Of course, shows like Survivor widely promote the opposite of your world view! Lovely world we live in.
Have a great trip and, ah, relax in LA??